It is over

Well it is officially over between me and my boyfriend. After going through the lies, disrespect and neglect I realized that this is NOT worth it. Now I feel free to breathe, except for one thing, he doesn't want to give up now. I mean come on, what is it with you guys sometimes? You play your little games and push until we have had enough and just when we decide we would rather eat crushed glass than be with you, you go an play the poor dejected guy who just needs another chance! Well I say no to that. Not after all the chances you got to clean up your act before. I am sorry but I am to old for this game, and I am not going to let myself get burned again. I refuse to look back in six years and shake my head saying "I really thought it was going to work out this time". this time I am nipping it in the bud! Okay damage control..whatever call it what you will. It was a year...granted a year that I will never get back...but that is way better than my last mistake which lasted over six years. All in all? Yeah, I learned something from that one it seems. I feel as though I must apologize to my ex. I know he wants this to work out, but I am moving on. There is some growing up that needs to be done. And I just know that by the time that happens he will probably have realized what it is he wants out of a relationship, and I have a pretty good idea that I will not be it. It really is best for the both of us this way.