Goddesses need love too

One goddesses tale of her journey from the nightclub scene and online dating to one day finding her own godlike mortal man and other goddess lore

lundi, mai 10, 2004

Catarina (10:15:16 AM): What'cha doin? Martin (10:15:41 AM): Just chatting with a friend Catarina (10:15:46 AM): Oh Catarina (10:16:01 AM): I thought you didn't even have this set up until two days ago Martin (10:16:04 AM): Haven't spoken with her in a while Catarina (10:16:07 AM): Who? Martin (10:16:35 AM): I didn't. She found me. Martin (10:16:38 AM): Rikki Catarina (10:16:45 AM): Oh Martin (10:16:52 AM): What you doing? Martin (10:17:13 AM): Hating Rikki right now Martin (10:17:18 AM): Why? Martin (10:18:44 AM): Hey Martin (10:18:50 AM): why did you leave Catarina (10:18:58 AM): ? Martin (10:19:08 AM): you just went idle Catarina (10:19:29 AM): Well I guess now you will have something to do with all that free time that you have. Martin (10:19:46 AM): ok Martin (10:20:18 AM): So why are you hating her? Catarina (10:20:43 AM): ? Catarina (10:20:51 AM): Hey did you ever love her, Catarina (10:20:58 AM): or were you ever in love with her? Martin (10:21:04 AM): Yeah. Catarina (10:21:12 AM): Which one Martin (10:21:45 AM): Both really. She's a very good friend. Catarina (10:21:57 AM): That's why! Martin (10:22:19 AM): Because I love her as a friend? Catarina (10:22:34 AM): No Martin (10:22:40 AM): then why? Catarina (10:22:42 AM): Hey it's okay.... Martin (10:22:45 AM): I don't get it Catarina (10:22:50 AM): I don't really hate her. Catarina (10:23:00 AM): How can I hate someone I don't even know? Martin(10:23:19 AM): you hate O.J. but don't know him Martin (10:23:23 AM): (smiley face) Catarina (10:23:25 AM): Hey! Catarina (10:23:30 AM): That was a low blow. Catarina (10:23:40 AM): Why don't you just get back to your freind. Catarina (10:23:42): friend Martin (10:23:46 AM): talk to you later? Catarina (10:23:52 AM): damnit!!!! Martin (10:23:58 AM): what Catarina (10:24:07 AM): I couldn't spell it right! Catarina (10:24:12 AM): see ya round Martin (10:24:16 AM): k 30 minutes later Catarina (10:54:30 AM): You still chatting with Mikki? Martin (10:54:57 AM): Yeah. Haven't stopped. How are you. Martin (10:55:13 AM): How work be? Catarina (10:55:17 AM): Damn how long have you been chattin? Martin (10:55:41 AM): I'm not sure. A while. I'm gonna have to go soon. Need to go to the dentist. Catarina (10:56:02 AM): Well I wanted to talk to you too Martin (10:56:33 AM): Let me log off the other line. Catarina (10:56:40 AM): What time is your appt. Martin (10:57:00 AM): I'm gonna be a walk in. I just have a lot to do before and after it though. Catarina (10:57:25 AM): Like chat wiht Rikki I see Martin (10:58:02 AM): No Martin (10:58:10 AM): Like pay bills Martin (10:58:20 AM): Someones gotta feed the monkey, man. Catarina (10:58:28 AM): Oh you are so funny Catarina (10:58:50 AM): so what time are you going to Wrastling? Martin (10:59:04 AM): Don't know. Starts at 7 Martin (10:59:16 AM): I'll probably leave at 6:30 or so Martin (10:59:25 AM): Are you there till 5 Catarina (10:59:43 AM): I will be here til 6 Martin (11:00:07 AM): 6. Why so late Catarina (11:00:21 AM): Anissa (my evening receptionist) has a LULAC meeting tonight Catarina (11:00:32 AM): I always stay for her Martin (11:00:40 AM): That's nice o' you Catarina (11:00:58 AM): Yeah don't tell anyone...sometimes I am not a Bitch! Martin (11:01:26 AM): your secret is safe with me Catarina (11:01:44 AM): Gosh Thanks Catarina (11:02:03 AM): So when are you going to the dentist Catarina (11:02:08 AM): to see Jay Martin (11:02:21 AM): I have to call him Martin (11:02:49 AM): See what time he can squeeze me in Martin (11:02:55 AM): Squeeze me in Catarina (11:02:59 AM): yeah I thought it Martin (11:03:00 AM): (horny smiley) Catarina (11:03:21 AM): Let me just get a couple of things straight here Catarina (11:03:33 AM): just to get them clear in my head...kay? Martin (11:03:51 AM): kay Catarina (11:03:55 AM): You believe that OJ is guilty Martin (11:04:06 AM): As sin Catarina (11:04:22 AM): But because he is a black man, getting off was a great accomplishment Catarina (11:04:29 AM): and you are glad that he did Martin (11:04:44 AM): I'm not glad he did it. But I am glad that he got off. Catarina (11:04:57 AM): because that makes everything right for aaaaaaalllllllll those other black men who didn't? Martin (11:05:17 AM): Tell it on the mountain. Catarina (11:05:47 AM): You seriously believe this? Martin (11:06:27 AM): Uhh Martin (11:06:29 AM): Uhh Martin (11:06:31 AM): Uhh Martin (11:06:35 AM): No? Martin (11:07:07 AM): Was that right Catarina (11:07:34 AM): You know I don't need you to tell me what you think I want to hear. Catarina (11:08:22 AM): If you really belive in this say it loud Catarina (11:08:25 AM): say it proud Martin (11:08:31 AM): I am glad he got off scott free damn it Martin (11:08:45 AM): The whole trial was race Martin (11:08:52 AM): Whether you want to admit it or not Martin (11:09:08 AM): It was a black man who lived in a white community Catarina (11:09:12 AM): They made a lot of it about race to get him off you moron Martin (11:09:24 AM): which was primarily all white Catarina (11:09:43 AM): You know I really belive in the race cause Catarina (11:09:47 AM): I am Hispanic you know Martin (11:09:56 AM): Yo lo se. Catarina (11:10:36 AM): I can totally sympathize with the race cause really!!!! Catarina2 (11:10:43 AM): but that was still wrong! Catarina (11:11:24 AM): And for you to be glad that this asshole who killed two people got off....well that is just acenine Martin (11:11:31 AM): Potatoe-Potato. Right-Wrong. It's splitting hair. It's all shades of gray. Catarina (11:11:40 AM): I don't think so Catarina (11:12:47 AM): Do you relly not care that someone's mother was killed Catarina (11:13:16 AM): hello Martin (11:13:23 AM): I do. Martin (11:13:33 AM): I feel bad for them. Martin(11:13:45 AM): But putting him away is not gonna bring her back. Martin (11:13:51 AM): His life is still ruined. Catarina (11:14:36 AM): So the poerson that did it shouldn't be punished for it Catarina (11:14:45 AM): not enough Catarina (11:14:49 AM): he is still scott free Martin (11:14:49 AM): But he has been. Martin (11:15:19 AM): They took his heisman. They took everything. He can't even make a buck using the name O.J. That's his damned name! Catarina (11:15:30 AM): Cry me a river Catarina (11:15:44 AM): He is a murderer by your own admission Martin (11:15:45 AM): Heisman. Catarina (11:15:51 AM): Fuck that Martin (11:15:55 AM): Heisman Catarina (11:15:57 AM): so what Martin (11:16:10 AM): Heisssss-MAAAN Martin (11:16:14 AM): Heisman Catarina (11:16:23 AM): You are retarded Martin (11:16:32 AM): Heisman Martin (11:16:55 AM): Hello. My name is... Martin (11:16:57 AM): heisman Catarina (11:17:29 AM): Would you want the person who killed someone in your family to get off scott free and be able to roam around FREE Martin (11:18:13 AM): Which aunt or uncle. Because I do have some assholes in the family. Catarina (11:18:26 AM): your Mom Martin (11:19:46 AM): I'd kill the sumbitch myself. Martin (11:20:10 AM): I'd do it with his Heisman but I would put it back in it's place. Catarina (11:20:17 AM): LOL Catarina (11:20:34 AM): That's how I feel Catarina (11:20:45 AM): Nicole wasn't my mother...but she belonged to someone Martin (11:20:52 AM): Give the man his Heisman. Catarina (11:20:53 AM): who gives a crap about her right Martin (11:21:03 AM): really Catarina (11:21:13 AM): I told you I agreed with the Heisman thing Catarina (11:21:29 AM): That doesn't mean he should be free Catarina (11:21:41 AM): Really what? Martin (11:21:51 AM): Heisman-Hisman Martin (11:21:59 AM): Potato-Potatoe Catarina (11:22:17 AM): Hey are you still cahtting with whats her name Martin (11:22:26 AM): Yes Martin (11:22:32 AM): I'm multitasking Catarina (11:22:39 AM): So that is why I haven't had your full attention Catarina (11:22:47 AM): you are a jerk Martin (11:22:54 AM): I'm talking to you too Catarina (11:22:56 AM): I thought you were getting off. Martin (11:23:05 AM): On the Heisman issue Catarina (11:23:08 AM): no Martin (11:23:16 AM): It is a very sexy trophy Catarina (11:23:17 AM): I thought you were getting off the other line Martin (11:23:26 AM): It's got a little dude on top Catarina (11:23:34 AM): are you talking sexy to her? Martin (11:23:41 AM): Oh. You didn't say to Catarina (11:23:52 AM): You said you were. I just assumed. Catarina (11:24:12 AM): You still didn't answer my question. Martin (11:24:17 AM): I didn't hear you say yes Catarina (11:24:45 AM): You just said you were going to...I didn't think I needed to tell you to do something you were going to do anyway. Martin (11:24:58 AM): I'm sorry Catarina (11:25:19 AM): So, were you talking dirty, nasty, sexy or anything of the sort to her? Martin (11:25:46 AM): A little Catarina (11:25:54 AM): you suck Catarina (11:26:02 AM): Why Martin (11:26:16 AM): Why? Catarina (11:26:24 AM): Yeah! do you plan to do things to her? Martin (11:26:32 AM): No Martin (11:27:11 AM): babe, we're friends Catarina (11:27:40 AM): Does that mean you can talk to her the way you are supposed to talk to me? Martin (11:28:15 AM): I'm talking the same way i've talked to her for years. Catarina (11:28:23 AM): You have a girlfriend now Catarina (11:28:28 AM): or does she not know that Catarina (11:28:54 AM): or did you forget I immediately recieved a phone call from him, where he acted like his computer went out on him so he had to talk to me on the phone. I don't know how stupid he thinks I am, but, I am one of those people who will call bullshit when I see it! We had a discussion, very interesting indeed, where I was being inundated with all the reasons why he should continue to be able to talk to this girl he dated briefly, been intimate with, but has known since high school, or anyone else for that matter, any way he pleased. I got so mad, I was ready to break up! He then made the suggestion that we talk about this after I get off work. Which we really didn't do. He called me later and told me I was right, he was sorry, and he would immediatley stop the behavior. Nice start. He then said he hadn't mentioned anything about it to her, and wasn't planning to. Huh! Really! I wasn't feeling that, so I asked him how he planned on discontinuing this exchange from happening between the two of them? Was he just not going to do it, and when she does,would he just ignore it and let her continue on? I think not! He conceded and said later that he would talk to her when the next opportunity arose, and although he would be uncomfortable doing so, he would tell her they couldn't talk to each other the way they used to. As of now I still don't think he has told her, and I am not sure whether or not he will actually stop if and when wround other women...furthermore, I am forced to seriously wonder whether a relationship where I have to tell the guy how to show his respect for me, and ask the guy 20 questions before I get a decent answer to anything, is gonna survive. I suppose we shall just wait and see. He was planning on taking a road trip home today, but ever since this all happened he has taken a sudden change of heart and decided that he wants to wait until next week. When I asked him why he changed his mind, first it was some work thing that he wasn't sure about. Now he has changed his story, and said that he needs to do some things and wants to just relax since he doesn't have school for awhile, and spend some time with me. Sweet....but I am not sure I am buying it. Could Rikki, Mikki, Jikki whatever her name is, perhaps be planning on going home around the same time too now?