Goddesses need love too

One goddesses tale of her journey from the nightclub scene and online dating to one day finding her own godlike mortal man and other goddess lore

samedi, mai 22, 2004

So it is down to the wire. Should I move in, or shouldn't I. Today is the last opportunity if I am going to. I just haven't been able to make that decision yet. There is still a chance that he may leave anyway. I just hate that I always shortchange myself, and just take whatever people are willing to give me, specifically at the moment, my boyfriend, instead of standing up for myself. I dont' want to move in with someone who says he wants to stay with me, but still doesn't know whether he is moving or traveling or whatever, and won't have a clue until he graduates. And even if he told me what I wanted to hear, I don't know if I can trust him. He has done that before, but failed to put his money where his mouth is. I mean I have had to extract information from him, just to get him to be honest with me on several occasions. Now I tried to make a deal with him, that if he is honest with me, I won't be so suspicious all the time, but that should just be a no brainer. Now that I think of it, I don't actually recall him saying okay to that. Just okay to trying to work it out. Sometimes he can be really tricky that way. Perhaps more podering is in order...or maybe he jsut needs to start proving what he says to me.