Ixnay on the partment-ay. Chino backed out on me, citing some problem with money....I think his new girl just didn't like the idea of him moving in with a girl but, whatever. I just smiled and nodded, even though the move in date was only a week and a half away at the time, I just told him it was okay...I understand...no problem. No problem? Now what? Then Martin called. I told him what had happened. Tried to keep a smile on my face. Then he asked me to come over that evening...he wanted to talk to me. I wanted to believe that he wanted to ask me to move in with him but good things hardly ever happen to me in any relationship. Sometimes I think he is too good to be true...and I have been fooled by that before. I wish something in me would allow it to just be whatever it's supposed to be. So I agree...hoping for the best but fully expecting the worst (something I now realize I learned from my father). He greets me at the door with a kiss. Okay, this is good! I come in and we make ourselves comfortable in each others arms. Okay so this is getting better as we go...although he could just be trying to soften the blow. He then says "I hadn't wanted to do this...but when you told me about how everything was going with your apartment situation...this thought crossed my mind...but I decided against it because I thought it was such a huge step. Well I was thinking at the time of moving to our own apartment together...but since my roomate situation will be changing soon and now you and Chino aren't going to be moving in I thought you might want to take over his lease when he leaves.

Okay since I haven't written in awhile, I should try to catch you all up on everything. My electricity has been shut off for non payment! But I still have the most comfortable bed in the world at home, so I just sometimes shower at my cousins or my boyfriends place. I try to keep in mind that it is only temporary, and I will be moving into another apartment on the south side of town with a friend very soon.....May 7th is the tentative move in date. I have never lived on the south side but everyone in Austin agrees that south is truly Austin and is the place to be. I really had only thought of it in terms of distance to where my boyfriend and cousins live. As for the friend that I am moving in with, you all know and adore him...even though we have had our ups and downs, and he still has a massive but benign crush on me, Chino and I will be roomates. The apartment we are moving into is very large...It has vaulted ceilings...it is on the third floor, fireplace, in the living room, and a wraparound balcony complete with storage and washer dryer connections I get the master bedroom!!! Yeah! With adjoining bathroom, dressing room, and walkin closet! Double yeah! I am counting the days. I can't wait to use my new kitchen....but that is a long way off, I must first pack everything up and put some stuff in a storage facitliy, since we will have to cosolidate furniture because of space. I think this will work out well for the both of us, since he never really spends too much time at home, and I am a home body, so I can lay around in my PJ's with the remote in one hand, a glass of La Crema pinot noir in the other, and a simmering pot of swedish meatballs (meatless of course) giving off a wonderful savory aroma from my stove without being bothered too much. Really guys I have been dreaming of this day! But for now, I am still drudging my life away at the dealership for slave wages, and carrying my tote bag with me wherever I go, because these days, I never know when I will get a hot shower, cable tv, and a comfy air conditioned filled living room to relax in even if only for a few hours.