Goddesses need love too

One goddesses tale of her journey from the nightclub scene and online dating to one day finding her own godlike mortal man and other goddess lore

vendredi, janvier 30, 2004

You know usually when I fall for someone or find them "interesting" it takes a long time for me to see their shortcomings, or should I say recognize a pattern and act accordingly. In the case of Scott, I am not having that problem. A couple of days ago he asked me to lunch, I said no. Perhaps some other time. We agreed later in the week would be better. Well It's Friday and I was never asked to lunch so I took the opportunity to run some errands. When I returned, Scott was nowhere to be found, but I also noticed which other guys were MIA, since my Ding-A Ling didn't record any information regarding lunch or checking out. A few minutes after I had returned, so had he and the others. They were all smiles and jokes. Scott approached my desk and asked me where I had gone for lunch. I told him about the errands I ran and the take out kung-pao tofu that I scarfed. I asked him about his lunch he said they went to The Spot. For those of you who aren't privy to the insider language of "the guys" that I work with, The Spot is another name for Sugar's Cabaret, and for those of you who don't live in Austin, Texas, that is a famous gentlemans's club. Now, going here for lunch to get a really good lunch special isn't such a bad idea in of itself. Add topless women and hey it's kind of a cool novelty. He said "The Spot, It's Friday." I said "Oh, so that's every Friday?" "Yeah." he says. I don't judge people, spread gossip, or talk trash about them behind their backs, there are just some people that I talk to and some that I don't. Some people that I will hang out with and others that will never get the opportunity. I think he has just fallen into the "others" category. Oh well.

My Horoscope says that I should be the front person for an organization that needs my charisma. Maybe my talents are being wasted here at Everyman's Auto Dealership. It also says that love and sex are there for the taking, if that's what I truly want. Well YEAH!!!! That is what I truly want, but I don't see where I am supposed to take it from. It's slim pickings around here. And that over the next week, loyalty will play a big role in my happiness. I don't know about the rest of you guys but loyalty is always going to play a big role in my happiness! I don't know why I even subscribed to get my horoscope e mailed to me every day. Sometimes I guess I just need a really broad, general, point of view on everything.

jeudi, janvier 29, 2004

Oh my. How very interesting this has become. Of course I would be referring to Scott. The Monday following that evening. I came to work with the attitude that I wasn't going to let this one thing get out of hand. I guess when you don't have sex with a guy it makes him want you more. Well at least he has more respect for me for not doing anything rash, I think. At first I thought maybe since he just walked past my desk that morning, that he was going to ingnore me the rest of the day. He went to the coffee shop first then stopped by my desk for a little conversation. I think we established that neither of us was sorry for anything we had done (which in retrospect was very little but felt like a lot) and that we were still very much attracted to each other. Very nice.I kept busy all day. At lunch he and Chase both checked out and off they were. Approximately a half an hour later I went to lunch alone, had a craving for Chinese, and even got back a little early this time. This is when it gets interesting. My ding-a-ling day receptionist always answers the phone by saying "Good Morning, thank you for calling Everyman's Auto Dealership!" Kind of in a high pitched cheesy sing song voice. And if you have ever heard the sound of someones fingernails scratching a chalkboard it is much more pleasurable than the way this woman sounds over my PA system. Add the fact that she says those exact nine words regardless of the time of day, whether the sun is rising or setting, it is always morning to the poor dear. So as I was saying, from the time that I left, to the time Scott & Chase got back from lunch, Scott's girlfriend showed up looking for him. Now somewhow, there was a miscommunication between Ding-a-ling and the Girlfriend, because when I got back Scott looked a bit uptight. I asked him if he was allright, to which he simply shook his head. I asked him what was wrong, and he just stood there looking at Ding-a-ling. I asked what she had done. And this time it was a doozy. Scott: That stupid receptionist. Catarina: What? Scott: My girfriend showed up here when I was at lunch. Catarina: Yeah? Scott: She told my girlfriend that you and I were at lunch together. Catarina: Now why would she do that? I showed her the checkout list and it clearly says you and Chase went to lunch together, a full half an hour before I left for lunch. Scott: I don't know. Why would she? And even if I had gone to lunch with you, why is she telling anyone who I went to lunch with. Catarina: I don't know. Did you talk to her? Scott: Not yet. Catarina: Well you probably should. I will talk to her too. Scott: (walking to his desk) Okay. I called her and asked her about it, and apparantly the damned Girlfriend was the one asking for information. She knew my name and was trying to put two and two together. Even though my day receptionist is a ding-a-ling, she told me that she never once said anything like that. Well, then I have to wonder how the Girlfriend even knows my name, or would think to put Scott and I together in any way. My receptionist is a bit of a gossip so she may have put an idea in her head. Clucking hens! I told Scott what she said about it. He didn't look surprised. Perhaps the Girlfriend is a little...touched. I would even venture to say she has acted this way before. I was sick the next day so I called in When I returned on Wednesday, of course everyone was glad that I was back. Scott walked right past my desk, seemed like he was in a hurry. Running to the coffee shop, then a straight shot to his desk where I noticed he was calling someone. I was watching him look off to the side and wondering who he would have to call first thing before you even start your work day. That might be his fian...beep beep...beep beep...my switchboard was sounding off. I looked at it and realized he was calling me. Relief, then felt utterly silly for even caring in the first place. Scott: Hey Sexy! Catarina: Hey! Scott: What happened to you yesterday? I came in and you were not here. Catarina: I had to stay home because I was coughing and sneezing all night. Then I lost my voice. Scott: Well I am really glad you're back! Catarina: (I was sincerely moved) Thank you! Scott: Okay, I'll talk with you later. Catarina: Okay, bye. Scott: Bye So I guess there is no harm in continuing to be friends ...is there?

mercredi, janvier 28, 2004

They call him Tater...Tater salad! Another very good friend of mine who calls me pretty much on a daily basis, called just to say "That thong tha thong thong thong!" which always cracks me up because it's usually at a time in the day when I need it. Bubba is one of the sweetest guys. Just really good natured, in a wholesome kinda way. He syas he is just a country boy, but he is also pretty good looking.I would say a good two inches taller than I am which would make him 5'9", and he fills it out well. Nice green eyes, kinda milky complexion, goatee and (now) salt and pepper colored hair. Mostly pepper! We have an agreement. If neither one of us is married by the age of 40...we marry each other! You know the way things have been going, I may have to start considering that a little more seriously. Plus he tells me that I rock! When guys like Jake mess with me or when I feel like I don't want to try anymore or just because, he is always there to make me feel better. Which is a little ironic since at one time he was one of those mean stinky boys, but luckily we got past that, and he really did see the real me finally, like I had always seen him. Not only is he a sweet guy and one of my very best friends but, he is in my humble opinion, extremely talented. I know I have only really heard him singing karaoke, but he blows all those country western icons out of the water. Now I am not a fan of country music by any means, but I have a great appreciation for someone who can sing and has a really good stage presence and he does! He does a lot of other things really well too...why is it that we didn't work out...I can't remember. Maybe the fact that he kinda hurt me once, maybe because he now lives in Dallas, or maybe some other reason alltogether. No matter because I found a true friend. And now he's got this song going through my head "She bangs she bangs....she moves she moves".

lundi, janvier 26, 2004

I received a nice phone call from my friend George yesterday. It was really good to hear from him since I used to consider him my best friend not too long ago...I suppose I still do but we don't get to hang out like we used to anymore since he moved further south. So now he is in deep southern Texas. Poth, Texas to be exact. I had been wondering about how things were going with him lately and just like everytime that he crosses my mind he called only a few hours afterwards. he seems to be adjusting to small town life again, and having to be the one that everyone in his family can count on. Good cuz I wasn't sure if he was going to make it there for a while. That's my G! Anyway, we hadn't talked in awhile so I kinda had to fill him in on the latest with my online dating escapades. Then we came to the subject we always end up talking about, sex. I did some calculating in my head and realized that it has actually been three whole months since I have had sex! He was impressed because I usually don't go without for longer than three weeks. I was explainig how much clearer things were becoming now that sex isn't an issue for me anymore, and he pointed out that episode of Seinfeld. Where George doesn't have sex for some time and becomes really smart. Gee thanks G! But it did have some truth. I guess that is why I busted out laughing. Funny thing about that. G always could make me laugh harder than anyone else, and always at the most unexpected things...sometimes I really miss him. then I remember that he is only a phone call away.

I woke up with no voice on Saturday, and have been trying to rest up this weekend for today. Unfortunately, I still sound like a monotonous bull frog, which probably wouldn't be so bad if my job duties didn't include, being the first person customers come into contact with on the phone, and making 99.9% of all the overhead PA pages in the entire dealership. But a good thing happened today to offset all that. One customer made my day today. He was a thirty-something somewhat attractive guy in an orange and yellow (no really!) polo shirt and blue jeans. He made himself comfortable as he leaned on my desk and dialed a number from his cell phone. He was looking at his friend who had been waiting in our showroom for him to pick him up, he wasn't more than 10 feet away , and yelled into his cell phone. Cellphone guy: Hey! I am trying to find you. Waiting guy: I am here in new cars. Cellphone guy: Yeah? well I am tired of waiting for your ass. Get up and let's go. Waiting guy: Well where are you? Cellphone guy: Do you see the best looking on girl on the showroom floor? Waiting Guy: (Scans the room, sees me and smiles Then sees his friend and shakes his head) Cellphone guy:(looking at me) Thank you. And they both walked out the front door No, thank you, Cellphone guy....thank you!